Gavynne

So I don't know how to tell this friend of mine that I have no desire to design another tattoo for her...

The last tattoo I designed for her got altered by the tattoo artist and it ended up looking like shit.  I have no desire to have my name associated with some botch work. I was some what offended that she had some one else alter my original work instead of asking me to.  

I just don't know how to tell her that I don't want to do another design for her because I am afraid it will turn out like the last...

so I realize I am diggin on this comic style now... maybe this stem's from childhood memories of reading comic book's and graphic novel's... my friend Anna, love her to death, has been gracious enough to supply me with a lot of eye shot's... tho I think I will eventual need more with the way these Sunday Morning Comic's piece's are coming... I would hate to duplicate an eye for one of them... Hoping to start maybe incorporate other element's into them as well, not just eye's, but maybe full face's and stuff... we'll see where the road take's me...

so I finally got my stuff back, minus a couple blending style's I made... feel's good to be able to conceptualize what I am visualizing again... I know it's only a program, but it's a release for me... a way to escape from the mundane, to let my own world show through... these other application's out there, not as good to me... I know some out there feel they are, I want simplicity and functional, not something flashy that I have to memorize a hundred and one hotkey's and function's... just let me point and click, adjust a little slider bar, grab a node with my mouse and move it where i want it... even my machine's are simple... i don't need the fancy thing's to do what i want, they don't make me any better... they don't make the machine's or the program's run any better...

so I went to clean my hard drive off, got a virus on it... thought I had everything backed up properly... decided to step down from vista to xp in hopes of having a few more gig's of hard drive space... installation went as normal... xp installed, had to spend an hour getting all my driver's loaded, then went to go reinstall my graphix program's from the cd's I just burned not even three hours prior... redundancy error's start flying up, I get the program to install finally, go to slam my plugin's into the folder, double click the familiar icon I have come to love, I even have it set in the same place as it was on vista... I know the movements to that icon by heart... my virus scan goes off, one of the preset filter's in now a virus... I dump the install, try it again with out the plugin's... run's fine... time to put the plugin's back in... double click... virus warning again... maybe I should of just left it all alone, stayed on vista, cleaned the virus out, but I needed the few extra gig's open... all this for a few lousy gig's of extra storage... and here I am, I want to create something, and nothing wants to work right, nothing feels the same as that one program... I know my work isn't the best, I know I still have a long way's to go... but it's my work... I love it... my friend's and those I care about love it... that's what really matter's when it comes down to art... how you feel about it...